Therapy

I'm not sure how to start this, so I'm just going to dive in.

We talked a lot about Validation and being positive. I need to work on being more aware of the feelings others cause me to feel (not intentionally) that my ex would. Feelings of negativity towards myself. I need to recognize these feelings, call it what it is, and let it roll off my shoulders. I should be in a better habit of more positive thoughts towards myself. 

He described something from the book 7 Habits of Highly Effective People, called the Relationship Bank. You have to put more positives in than what you take out. 

This past week at work I was hit, kicked, punched, scratched, called stupid a**, I hate you, ect. 

After a while it was really getting to me. My therapist was able to show me how those feelings were closely related to the ones I felt in my marriage, it was amazing to me because the things happening to me did not even seem related at all.

So This next week I am working on being more positive, I am going to try to be positive with myself and my students, I will try hard to validate my self and those around me. 

I searched for love when the night came and it closed in
I was alone, but You found me where I was hiding
And now I'll never ever be the same
It was the sweetest voice that called my name, saying

You're not alone for I am here
Let me wipe away your every fear
My love, I've never left your side
I have seen you through the darkest night
And I'm the One who's loved you all your life
All your life

You cry yourself to sleep
'Cause the hurt is real and the pain cuts deep
All hope seems lost with heartache your closest friend
And everyone else long gone
You've had to face the music on your own
But there is a sweeter song that calls you home, saying

You're not alone for I am here
Let me wipe away your every tear
My love, I've never left your side
I have seen you through the darkest night
And I'm the One who's loved you all your life
All your life

Faithful and true forever
My love will carry you

You're not alone for I, I am here
Let me wipe away your every fear
My love, I've never left your side
I have seen you through the darkest night
Your darkest night
And I'm the One who's loved you all your life
All your life

Songwriters: Meredith Andrews / Meredith Frances Andrews

You're Not Alone lyrics © Warner/Chappell Music, Inc

AZ

My first vacation to AZ in about 3 or 4 years was much needed! I bought some plane tickets and went on my own, the whole time I either followed my sister around, took naps, or played with my nieces and nephews. Now of course I had tons of fun and it was just what I needed, but I wanted to write more about my Brother in law.

I have an AMAZING Brother in Law, his name is Maeser Anderson. This man could be a motivational speaker, He is always so uplifting, and always makes me feel better about myself. We had such wonderful conversations that have helped me gain some of my confidence again. This man is also a TALENTED ARTIST! I follow him on his instagram account @maeserart or his facebook page Maeser Art. While being in their home it was filled with pieces of his art, and it just showed how much they love the Prophet and Jesus Chirst. I wish to share his art with others because it has helped me through some trying times.

Thank you Maeser for being YOU! Your home, your art, and your help while I was in AZ has taken me another step through the healing process.

1. I believe in Christ; he is my King!

With all my heart to him I'll sing;

I'll raise my voice in praise and joy,

In grand amens my tongue employ.

I believe in Christ; he is God's Son.

On earth to dwell his soul did come.

He healed the sick; the dead he raised.

Good works were his; his name be praised.

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4. I believe in Christ; he stands supreme!

From him I'll gain my fondest dream;

And while I strive through grief and pain,

His voice is heard: "Ye shall obtain."

I believe in Christ; so come what may,

With him I'll stand in that great day

When on this earth he comes again

To rule among the sons of men

Text: Bruce R. McConkie, 1915-1985. (c) 1972 IRI

Music: John Longhurst, b. 1940. (c) 1985 IRI