Therapy

There is so much that I have learned these past weeks. I have been feeling stuck in a really dark pit with no way out and now finally I have found a couple steps out of the pit. Things seem much brighter.

The last two sessions I was told that the next step would be harder. Instead of working on relationships around me like at home, work, and church, I had to make some progress with the Ex.
First of all I am to not "Take the bait" It is not my responsibility to fix things for him. I need to get in the habit of having empathy for him but then put the accountability back on him. Dean told me that there is a gut feeling that comes to your heart before your head catches on to it and that I need to pay attention to that gut feeling so I don't get manipulated.
One thing I loved that he said is that sometimes people we communicate with do not respond well and that does not mean it's my fault. "You did great, sometimes it's the receiving end that is unhealthy". I had a great opportunity to remember and work this the very next day at instacare. The nurse asked me what was going on and I had just started to say how I was just there for something else but now it was for possible strep. She interrupted me and said in a rude tone that she didn't need to know what happened the other day and only needed to know what was happening right now. Well if she would have let me finish she would have known, but I brushed it aside. Then later in the next room she stated how she thought I didn't like her and a few more things that made me feeling like I was a hypochondriac and the lowest of the low. I thought back on everything I did and said multiple times and was able to pull my self out of those feelings and realize that everything I said was kind and I did nothing wrong in this situation.
We also discussed how there is Physical and Emotional energy, nothing is black and white and that Perspective is Everything!

The Lyrics for He Showed Me How by David Archuleta have been translated into 1 languages

I used to hurt. I used to hide. I could only see the walls that I kept myself behind And it was hard, until I found There's one who knows the way to bring them down. He showed me how to look for more To see the truth I couldn't find before And I learned to believe there's more that I can be I can be stronger now ‘Cause He showed me how. I took a step into the Light I followed the voice that said that I was strong enough to try And as my heart could hear the sound I knew I could climb above the doubt He showed me how to look for more To see the truth I couldn't find before And I learned to believe there's more that I can be I can be stronger now ‘Cause He showed me how. Yes He did, Oh His love opened my eyes And I know that He's been there by my side He showed me how to look for more To see the truth I couldn't find before And I learned to believe there's more that I can be I can be stronger now ‘Cause He showed me how. ‘Cause he showed me how.