Today's lesson

So last night was not my prettiest of nights, and I was feeling like crap. Every time I think I've got things under control and I'm improving, something happens that makes me feel like I was put back at the start. This morning I woke up to puffy, swollen eyes from all my crying. Well lets fast forward to sunday school. We listened to a talk by Elder D Todd Christofferson and he spoke of a currant bush that had to be trimmed drastically for it to grow into it's intended purpose.

https://www.lds.org/media-library/video/2012-01-014-the-will-of-god?lang=eng

I realized that God has a plan for me and sometimes I will have to go through sorrow, pain, and sadness to become stronger.

Well in Relife society we had another amazing lesson that just took things to the next step.

https://www.lds.org/media-library/video/2017-09-2050-ronald-a-rasband?lang=eng

It was on Divine Design. As a teen I believed a lot in Divine Design, and as I've gotten older I've forgotten all about it. Like the Currant bush in the first talk God has a Divine Design for me, He has a plan, and a purpose for me in this life. I may not see it now or know what my future may hold but God is still there, watching over my girls and I.

"Master, the tempest is raging!

The billows are tossing high!
The sky is o’ershadowed with blackness.
No shelter or help is nigh.
Carest thou not that we perish?
How canst thou lie asleep
When each moment so madly is threat’ning
A grave in the angry deep?

The winds and the waves shall obey thy will:
Peace, be still.
Whether the wrath of the storm-tossed sea
Or demons or men or whatever it be,
No waters can swallow the ship where lies
The Master of ocean and earth and skies.
They all shall sweetly obey thy will:
Peace, be still; peace, be still.
They all shall sweetly obey thy will:
Peace, peace, be still.

Master, with anguish of spirit
I bow in my grief today.
The depths of my sad heart are troubled.
Oh, waken and save, I pray!
Torrents of sin and of anguish
Sweep o’er my sinking soul,
And I perish! I perish! dear Master.
Oh, hasten and take control!

The winds and the waves shall obey thy will:
Peace, be still.
Whether the wrath of the storm-tossed sea
Or demons or men or whatever it be,
No waters can swallow the ship where lies
The Master of ocean and earth and skies.
They all shall sweetly obey thy will:
Peace, be still; peace, be still.
They all shall sweetly obey thy will:
Peace, peace, be still.

Master, the terror is over.
The elements sweetly rest.
Earth’s sun in the calm lake is mirrored,
And heaven’s within my breast.
Linger, O blessed Redeemer!
Leave me alone no more,
And with joy I shall make the blest harbor
And rest on the blissful shore.

The winds and the waves shall obey thy will:
Peace, be still.
Whether the wrath of the storm-tossed sea
Or demons or men or whatever it be,
No waters can swallow the ship where lies
The Master of ocean and earth and skies.
They all shall sweetly obey thy will:
Peace, be still; peace, be still.
They all shall sweetly obey thy will:
Peace, peace, be still.  

-Master The Tempest Is Raging"